Awesome week. I’m officially back in the swing of coaching, working out myself, up at 4am reading, and just feeling lots of gratitude for everything that comes my way.
I read two books in the past week. One was titled – Daring Greatly and the other – Outwitting the Devil. Both of them came at a perfect time for me.
“Daring Greatly dispels the cultural myth that vulnerability is weakness and argues that it is, in truth, our most accurate measure of courage.”
Pretty much my whole life I’ve tried to hide my vulnerability from others. I tend to seek out activities that scare me in an attempt to escape vulnerability and eventually break free from it. I made an effort to hide my feelings about a lot of things as I would get upset when I heard others complain about stuff. I wanted people to think I was fearless, bulletproof and that nothing could phase me. In reality it’s my ability to constantly put myself out there that actually gives me the courage that I’ve been seeking. I’m always scared. I’m scared every time I give a talk. I’m scared before some sessions with my clients. I’m scared everytime I enter a competition. I’m scared every time I meet someone new. I’m scared every time I get into a plane knowing I’m going to jump out of it. I constantly put myself into vulnerable situations which can result in failure and that is exactly why I succeed.
In my quest for self mastery I’m becoming more and more aware that for me it’s all about the search. I’m not trying to find the end point, the perfect program, philosophy, mentor, or permanent solution to rid myself of the fear. I continue to seek out more and more and more in an attempt to never stop progressing.
As Susan Jefferes puts it in her book Feel the Fear and Do It Anyway – “The fear will never go away as long as I continue to grow”
Outwitting the Devil has been on my shelf for months and I don’t know what compelled me to pick it up this week but it was the perfect complement to Daring Greatly.
The book is based on an interview Napoleon Hill held with the Devil himself. The reader is encouraged to make your own decision on weather or not this was an imaginary event created by Hill or if it actually took place. Regardless of your own interpretation this book is AMAZING and was WAY ahead of its time.
Apparently it was written in the 1930’s and Hill’s family only gave permission for it to be published in 2011 due it’s controversial content. Napoleon Hill is famous for his book ‘Think and Grow Rich’. That was one of the first books I read which inspired me to open my gym. I remember reading it when I used to work at CrossFit Newton and take the bus out there everyday.
The Devil represents everything that can be perceived as negative in the world. The interview revolves around 7 principles which you need to make a part of your life in order to not live in fear and subordination.
The two books fit together really well and hammer home the concepts of:
– Have a vision for exactly how you want your life to look.
– Become a master of your emotions and ask yourself challenging questions constantly.
– Learn from adversity and how you only actually fail at something when you quit.
– If you don’t make things happen then things will happen to you. Be proactive v.s reactive.
– Time is your most precious commodity.
– Every failure brings with it the seed of an equivalent success.
Obviously all of the above points can be deeply elaborated on and I encourage anyone reading this to check out the books if you have any interest.
The last point was very significant for me personally. In a previous post I had written something to the effect of ‘It’s easy to be grateful when things are going your way but the real challenge is being grateful when things are stacked against you.’ This quote was huge for me in the past week when I was dealing with a lot of personal insecurities surrounding self worth and similar head trash.
What I’ve found is that the more I am willing to open up to others and show my true self the more others are willing to do the same and thats extremely encouraging for me to continue down this road.
I got back in the wind tunnel last week. First time in there since October and I was def a little rusty. I got an action packed year ahead of me between skydiving and BASE trips so lots of footage to come.
I’ve been learning Head Down flying in the tunnel most recently. It’s extremely difficult. In the video below you can see me getting off the net unassisted for the first time. I know I will look back on this video in a few years and laugh at it but now it’s a big accomplishment for me.
It’s funny to watch cause it really doesn’t look that impressive but it’s taken me 11 hours in the tunnel to get to this point and I’m actually considered to be a relatively quick learner.Keep in mind that you have to fly on your belly, back, and sitting upright before you even begin trying head down. Each of the above take quite a while to get the hang of.
Anyways the other night I was getting extremely frustrated and wanted to quit. The rotations work in 90sec intervals. You go in for 90sec, out for 90sec and do that for 30mins. During one rest period I started checking out saying things like ‘fuck it, on the next one just go in and do what you’re already good at.’ Then another voice came in and said ‘just when you are about to quit is usually the moment where you are about to succeed’ – Sure enough on the next rotation I got up.
This story seems so insignificant but resonates a lot with me. You can apply that concept to everything in life. I’ve had situations like that happen in various different areas and more often than I would like to admit I have quit. Repeating on the above – You only fail if you quit. Don’t quit.