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A couple of months ago something happened that I never thought was possible. I met the woman of my dreams. I say ‘of my dreams’ but at the same time I feel like I have just woken up, and I’m looking at everything with a new set of eyes.

For the last 3 years I feel like I’ve been running on a treadmill. Lost in Neverland, never wanting to grow up, with no real plans or desires beyond a few months ahead. Having said that I’ve had an amazing time, experienced things I never thought were possible, and made connections with people that will last forever.

For the last year or so I’ve been looking forward a lot and meditating on what I would like my life to look like in 20 years time. I have to tip my hat to Jordan Peterson here because his books and videos have had a big influence on this. It seems like such an obvious thing to say but the first step towards getting what you want is actually figuring out what you want. Through my own personal work and with the influence of books, videos, and coaches, I was able to identify what I wanted, but a part of me never thought I would find the person I wanted it with.

When Sequoia and I met we spoke for about two hours, and for our first date we spent 10 days straight living in a van with each other. Not your typical beginning by any means. Spending so much time together from the start left no room for masks and we got to know each other really well very quickly. There we so many ‘what the fuck!?’ moments during that time that left us both with the undeniable realization that we were destined to spend our lives together.

Each of our desires for what we wanted out of life fit together perfectly. There was a certain moment where I was looking at her and all I could think was ‘This is the person I want to spend the rest of my life with‘. It was beyond lust, or desire, or any other way you want to attempt to phrase it. I felt like it was an instinctual recognition that I never imagined existed. I felt like I had found my mate. Thats the best way I can describe it.

Coming full circle with all this I feel like a completely different person than I was a just a few months ago. All of the things I’ve gone through, and dark places I’ve crawled out have all been necessary in leading me to this point. I have a new lease on life, and a partner to help build that life with.

I has become we, mine has become ours, and you and I has become us. 

 

john